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Dec. 19th, 2005

04:59 pm - Bored

Well, work has finished, although I am still here. Blake is working over time today and so only dad can come and get me but of course he doesn't finish work until 5.30pm. SOOO..I am preparing myself to stay here for an hour or so knowing dad. My left arm has been aching terribly all day and it is pouring with rain outside. I just want to go home and get warm..watch a film and have a hot cup of tea. But on an exciting note, only two more days of work until we break up for the Xmas holidays!!!! It's awesome I really cannot wait. Our xmas eve party is going to be huge! And I have presents for many. I can't wait to hand them out. I still have a few to get though which I'm slightly concerned about but I will get there ^_^ This week I am also going to get the red in my hair redone and my nails back filled. I want to look really purrdy and well groomed for the special occasion. I have no idea what to wear though lol so that is a bit of a daunting task to find out what to wear :S I may just wear my little black dress with the hooks up the front like I did for the wedding I went to this weekend. Blake's cousin Melanie and her partner Jason finally got married after something like 7 years. Only 5.06pm I have agees to go yet. I am the only one here and have to lock up. Good luck to me putting on the clinic alarm for the first time. Oh well if there is a burglary at least I will know if I did it right or not lol. Blake got me a red eyeshadow and lippy for xmas..That will look really cool with my hair and nails ^_^ I'm more looking forward to seeing everyone else open their pressies though. I am really going to stick to my quickloss during xmas..I have to get to my goal weight. I'm 58kg now and I have lost over 18kgs..but I still have another 8 or 9 to lose. I'm still going strong! 50kgs..I'll be so little ^_^ I'll need a leash hehehehe I was thinking 48..but we will see..I have a while to go yet and I don't want to look like and under developed stick lol. mind you I still have my curves..And my boobs hehehe. Oh well I'll just do my best and then decide.

oh well, when you run out of things to say, you run out of things to say funnily enough plus my arm is reall hurting :`(

Feeling Fragile

Vixx

Current Mood: Not the happiest today

Current Music: none, It's dead silent

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Dec. 14th, 2005

Dec. 12th, 2005

04:49 pm

Well I haven't talked about Anything in a while. I guess I am just Lazy hehe. Christmas is soo close! Im really excited. I got some great gifts for people this year, although I can't say what they are online becuase you never know who's reading! ^_^ This week We have Blake's Xmas work function and then on Saturday is his cousin's wedding! So much to do!!! So little time!! I still have a few pressies to get for people but I'm getting there. Yay it's nearly home time. I can snuggle with my baby and have some tea. Vixx's famous cups of tea, gotta love it ^_^ Ooh King Kong comes out this week! Narnia we saw last week, It was incredible, so was Harry Potter. It has been really exciting seeing all of these movies come out every week. We have our Kong tickets already. Chicken Little is coming out on Xmas eve, I dont know if we will be able to see it on that day though becuase of everything that needs to be done! That will be the first film we haven't seen the first day it is released. :( oh well we will definitly see it though. On good news I have lost over 17 kg and am now in the 50kg range ^_^ Went shopping for some clothes the other day and it turns out I am a size small!! I bought a size 12 skirt and I could fit a size 8 with it zipped up! However I have a wee while to get to that size comfortably yet heheheh I will get there though! Even my T shirt is a size small and I still have a big bust. It's amazing! I'm so excited about getting to my goal weight. And then I will go on the Power Plate exercise machine and tone up ^_^ Anyway, It is 2 minutes till 5.00pm so I'd best get going!

Until next time.

Vixx

Current Mood: chipper

Current Music: None I'm at work again

Nov. 2nd, 2005

04:54 pm

Well it's the middle of the week and yay it's sleepover night!! Blake stays the night tonight!! ^_^ Rocky Horror was awesome.Me bex and Emily made the biggest mess in the cinema hahahah I loved it. Anton remembered some call backs which I had completely forgotten and vice versa. It was in the exact same cinema That The Rocky Horror Experience, which I was in was held. I nearly cried when I walked in..So many memories. It's barely open the cinema now because it is owned by the community and I hadn't been in there since the experience. I miss it soo much. It was one of the greatest moments of my life. I would give anything to go back an do it again. Yay it's nearly home time!! woot of course I will have to wait longer for Blake. Well Haloween sucked. Blake bought all this candy to hand out to the kids and not one kid came! So we all ended up standing outside offering it to the joggers and bikers! And we have heaps left. Although My sister's friend Todd keeps stealing all of it *PIG!!* hahahah :P Poltergeist was on sky last night (cable) It's not a bad film. Gets a bit boring though. but still I actually jumped a couple of times :D I just found out yesterday that my boss Kathy has the exact same birthdate as me..And she is left handed (well she was until the schools made her write as a right hander..barstards >.<) Oh well pretty scary.. We are Geminis..troublsome, outgoing, talented (troublesome yes, outoging..maybe, talented, haha!!) ooh 15 minutes to go. I should be getting me dreads by mid next week so I'm told. Yay! Shit I need to start buying christmas presents not long to go! I can't wait for Motorhead. We have our tickets ready. Go LENNY!! hahahah Hmm running out of things to say..Oh yes took Patrick to the Vet on HAlOwEeN to be desexed aww *wooo! poor baby >.<* But no he was fine. The operation was a success much to my relief ( A cat of mine died on the operating table while she was being desexed a few years ago.) But now both my babies are fine and free from trouble (Well that particular kind of trouble anyway lol.) Poor Pat keeps getting beaten up by a scgraggly big Ginger Tom :( But he manages..That's my boy!!! Oh well anyway ..ooh OOOH 10 more minutes!!!! My poor friend Antony got one present for his birthday!! How sad is that :(:( he says he's not fussed. (I hope he means it) 5 MINUTES!!! I think I'd better have full concentration for the last few Minutes heheheheh




Felling a little nutty

Vixx







I said I was feeling nutty!! heheh






OOOH ROCKY!!!






Poor Pat keeps getting beaten up by a scgraggly big Ginger Tom :( (who is also rather fluffy, this isn't the ginger Tom by the way..just a pic I found.)

Current Mood: Yay!

Current Music: None..Still at work @.@

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Oct. 27th, 2005

04:44 pm

Well I am slowly roasting like a plucked chicken next to the window at the work. Luckily we have black blinds that cover the sun up :D Well I havn't done too badly at work today however I didn't get to put the repeat bloods into the system as I was so busy all by myself!! 19 or so calls I took in from overflow in the call center! whilst doing all the statting and faxing etc etc etc..exhausting but it's a damn good job :) My dad's programme has arrived yayay A Sureslim family we are now hahah. yay it's nearly home time although I don't feel as I have accomplished everything today but nevermind. All I now is Im boiiiling hot!!!!! And I can't find my sunglasses. I lost them down the back of the desk and they are no where to be seen :(:(:(:( I'll have to get a new pair..oh well they were cheap ones anyways *shrugs* I feel a little bit anxious again. After everything thats going on I must admit I'm quite sensitive and get worked up over issues. I especially almost vomit over anything that is petty or immature. I don't even like to use those words it makes me sick..It really gives me a headache I can't stand contradiction and topics or problems which are juvenile. I can't stress this enough. I like to flow through things. Work things out rationnally and otherwise stay away from things which arn't worth even looking into. But when you face it everyday or hear about it..you can't get away from it it's soo hard. Oh well this is the part when I take a deep breath and look to the future. I try to look at the simple tihngs to cheer me up like Blake..watching a movie..having a hot cup of tea etc. I get so stressed out. But I will be alright. I must take on a positive attitude. I have a great job and a great boyfriend to get me by!! Oh look 4 minutes till work ends! I really like this journal thing. I don't even picture people reading it, I just like to write although I am cautious so as not to offend anyone because that will only hurt myslef and others. I find this nice and comforting to do this and I love putting pictures on:D For once it doesn't matter whether or not people read this, this is for me.:)

Content but roasting

Vixx





Yay for fluffy baby ducks! ^_^





Nothing like a cup of tea to ease stress and make the tummy warm XD

Current Mood: I will be alright!

Current Music: None, once again except for the other workers *sigh*

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08:40 am - Mix And Match

Well It's the morning and I am at work early as usual. Oh well It gives me time to surf the net and take care of affairs. I can't wait till I get my dread falls. If only I got them this week then I may have considered going to the ball. But it's to late notice otherwise and I have nothing to wear and the last thing I want to do is look like crap and feel like crap the whole night. Last time I went in a green satin crinoline with my red hair in ringlets and up with my fangs and blood red lips. The thing is is you get dressed up which you can do anyway, just to basicly stand there. And everyone's trying to look the best and be the most angsty. Its quite amusing but also quite sad. I like to go out of curiosity but I still am never too sure of the people there. You would think people of an alternative nature would understand acceptance and not to bring others down or think they are better. When the reality is we are all the same just different clothes. We are all classed and ranked. There is always talk behind our backs as to whether or not he or she is 'genuine' And you get the ones who think they are so elite that they honestly think that they are better than anyone else. We are all human, our bodys work the same but its amazing how image can affect your train of thought. I try not to let it get to me. I find my low self esteem helps me to be more selfless. I don't want to like myself because I dont wish to become egotistical, because people with a big ego are people who are generally less creative or mentally developed, or are living in a world of their own and it's tragic. It is foolish. It doesnt mean to say I would like to feel good about myself once and a while. That would be nice :) I think this weightloss will be good for me..May give me more confidence. So on another note..I am by myself in the callcentre yaaa *sarcastic* I dont mind I quite like the independence *just not the responsibility hehehe* Hmm Christmas is coming up..I have made a list of people to get pressies for..(including Blakes dog Ben) awww hahahah I just need to figure out what to get everyone. I wonder If I need to get boxing day gifts *ponders* Oh well Ill figure it out. Aww my little ginger cat Patrick is going to the vets on Halloween to be desexed..now what does that say *evil laugh* :P Anyways I best get going to work now.


See you later..And heres another pic of moi!!

Current Mood: meh

Current Music: None except some hip hop thing the others are listening to:S

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Oct. 26th, 2005

09:18 pm - Yaayyness I won!!!

I won the dreads!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! Shit I'm alone at work all day. my surpervisor in the call centre Kathy is off for the day so I have to do everything by myself..(good luck to myself!!) eeeknesss!!! Booked tickets to the Motorhead concert..im going to get some plain black dreads for that..(ultra mega goth!! hahahah jokes :P) Kool Anyways Im going to go and snuggle with my baby :D:D:D

Current Mood: I feel kind of sad

Current Music: None..just popping on for a sec

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05:22 pm

I went and Saw Corpse Bride at the movies..It was awesome..Go Tim Burton,,You Rock!! I also saw Willy Wonka (Charlie and The Choclate Factory.) and that was amazing. I can't wait to see King Kong, The Chronicals of Narnia and Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire. They are all coming out at the end of the year!! YAAAAAAAAAY CRAZY *jumps up and down* Im so excited! XD

Current Mood: Yayness!

Current Music: None, utter silence, everyone has gone home from work but me

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03:04 pm - Feeling Better

I have perked up slightly. I am looking forward to this evening as my partner Blake is staying the night. Finally some company to help rid of my anxiety. My sister is also a great help with that. We had the most awesome birthday party for her the other week.. A Willy Wonka cake..And I bought her tonnes of presents. I couldn't help myself ^_^ Ive put a bid on some dread falls today which is cool. Ive been looking everywhere for them. I have synthetic hair but dreads are the best. Plus they are in this country which is even better!! Ill post a pic on the net of me with them on when I get them (I am determined to win!) hahah Well Rocky Horror at Devonport this week!! I Can't wait. I shall be dressed all as Frankenfurter and flaunt it!! I love Rocky..Its the best...im really pumped. Ive been teaching Blake all of the call backs..'Hi..my names Brad Majors(ARSEHOLE!!!) And this is my fiance Janet Weiss(SLUT!!)' hahahaha I have to pack my bag of Rice and party favours..:D:D:D Ive had several people ask me if Im going to the Goth Ball. I dont think I will. The people there are hardly on the 'Scene' and just snobb you off. And of course I will get down because I'm not very attractive and I'll look like shit!! But I'm loosing weight!! ive lost over 11kgs in less thn 9 weeks through my job!! (Sureslim Weightloss and Wellness Clinic) Im going to be teeny tiny by christmas..So Ill look good in Pvc!! excellent!! :D:D:D On the other hand. I would like to go to the Goth Ball to get dressed up, but I dress up anyway because I am a glam freak!! (without actually looking glamerous because Im not lol).

Anyway That's all my thoughts for the moment. I quite like this journal tihng. it could help me be 'complete' so to speak lmao

Slightly better
Vixx

Current Mood: Getting there

Current Music: None, except for another persons which I have never heard of

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11:55 am

Another day of work. And I am really down. I just wish everything was civil between people. even when I try to stay away from a problem I get shot down. For so many weeks now Iv'e been brought almost to tears because of issues which cause me great depression. I try to ignore the pain but it hurts so badly. I feel like the world is crumbling. I don't want it to be this way. I wish everyone would grow up and realise the important things in life and how loving and caring and respecting one another is important. My nerves are shot and I feel so sick. why is there so much pettiness in the world.

deeply depressed an hurt
Vixx

Current Mood: I just want to sleep for days

Current Music: none..I wish there was..It would be Type O negative if so

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Oct. 25th, 2005

02:07 pm

Bored bored Bored!. I am on a lunch break and its Tuesday. I can not wait for the weekend!! Rocky Horror Picture Show!! Awesome. I'm going to dress up as Frank this time. I went to the Show in the weekend down in Hamilton. it was incredible. i must prepare for it. Get my rice and party favors ready. my first journal entry and of course I dont know what to say. haha..Oh well that is all for now.


Cya
Vixx

Current Mood: Rather annoyed and confused.

Current Music: absoloutley none unless you count the other girls music :S

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